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Closing the Book

2011-01-19T19:34:00.000-08:00

This is the last one for the both of us,
this blog was made specially for the both of us.
the story of both of us.
well,
maybe somethings are not meant to be,
just like somethings are not meant to be forgotten,
or even meant to be remembered.
i thank you for all the things that you have taught me,
all the things that you've done with me,
all the laughter that you did to make me feel happy and smile again.
im sorry for not taking care of you.
goodbye.. take care honey.

and if it's meant to be, insyallah you'll come back to me.

wow..its been ages..

2010-08-26T01:39:00.000-07:00

Its been ages ladies and gentlemen

Finally! i almost completed my DIPLOMA!
and it has been a year and 6 months since me and fara got together.
=)
life is getting really serious. and im loving my work sista's!
haha.
its been really2 busy lately. about college, about and working with and all.
currently working with cinequip and there's this new movie coming up. first epic movie that is going to be made in MALAYSIA. 75% CGI. Im officially the unit of making of and the STILL PHOTOGRAPHER!
woot woot!
anyway..i got to go...
will write when im free
=)
and im missing my baby like hell!

1 year anniversary

2010-02-28T09:14:00.000-08:00

This whole yeat of our realtionship has been a wonderful and beautiful memories i have ever had so far and yet i can't wait for the up comings. You have been a very good and almost perfect girlfriend to me. You take me for who i am and loved me with all your heart and because of that i feel aprriciated and loved and i finally realize that until today, i still shivers went it comes to date with you

You held my hands through out this journey,
that have been made between you and me.
We share our burden and goods,
sometimes even the same food.
Loving you is what i like to do,
irritate is part of it too.
But baby see,
I'm still for you bie.
=)
Lets held our hands tight nad make through this journey together.
I love you with all my heart and I promise to be the stars when you are in the dark,
the warrior in the war and the clown when your down.
I love you...

21/02/09

thoughts..dreams..hopes..

2009-10-03T11:35:00.000-07:00

By the beach next to the ocean. i saw a coconut tree just by the side of the beach next to a big rock. One specific tree. i carved our name at that specific tree. The time was showing 11.11 PM. It was witness by the moon and the stars. the wind was blowing, trees and leafs are waving as though as they are dancing with happiness and joy. just like how you always make me feel. Even though I'm at my worst mood, you would always be patient to cool me down. You are the ice when i feel like I'm burning. You are my umbrella when its raining. You are my favorite food when I'm starving. You are favorite pillow when I'm going to exhausted. You are my everything. And on that day that i carved our name on that tree, i saw a shooting star. and i wished for happiness and joy and luck for the both of us. I'm sorry for not giving you enough attention lately sayang. i promise ill make it up to you.

I may not be a prince...but you will always be the queen of my heart.
=).

walking down memory lane

2009-09-03T09:44:00.000-07:00

I'm missing her so much.
again...
im walking down to the memory lane.
flashing back what we've been through..
after all the up's and down's..
we manage to get our way through..
we are so much happier now.
my love her is growing day by day.
even the world could not fit my love for her.
baby..i love u.
=).

*pukol pukol*
only you understand this.
=D
haha..
im missing u so much sayang.

Dusty..

2009-09-01T09:12:00.000-07:00

Dusty...very dusty...hmmm...so whats new....let me see....im in love...hahaha...and i dont think that it is a new thing. ive been in love with her for a very long time and i've waited for her for quite some time..hmm...hahaha..dont worry baby..i still love you alot.hahaha..and urm..college is giving me quite a hell right now. i have to run here and there. haih...dont even have enough time for my sayang..dont really give her enough attention like how i use to..haih...and yeah..i had a great merdeka eve..eventhough its just haging at the mamak...but it was fun...she's not just my girlfriend..shes my bestfriend.shes my everything..i practically crack a joke like how i crack a joke with my friends..and it actually work..haha...i dont want to be those typical type of boyfriend..depan awek macho..blakang awek..parya..and my baby's brain is going to be floaded also soon...bie! u dah masuk air! Pukol pukol!...haha...anyway...this is for you sayang...

=)

its been since 6 month since we're together.
and i start to love more and more each day.
theres nothing more than i can say other than i love you and hope you would stay.
so everyday i would hope and pray
that i would always make you happy and smile
cause your man right here is really in love with you.
i enjoy doing everything with you.
"not a million fight can make me hate you..your invincible"
=)..

*macam lah banyak gadoh*
haha..
see baby..this is what i mean...its really hard to get angry with you..
manja angry got lah..;P
sayang you!
pukol pukol!
hehehe

I love.....

2009-05-19T13:34:00.001-07:00

I love the way you run your fingers through my hair,
I love the way you look at me with that beautiful soft stare,
I love the way you whisper in my ear,
I love the way you take me from my fear,
I love the way you play, the way you sing,
I love that you’ll laugh at anything,
I love loving you because you love me,
I love the way you are and that you let me be,
And I love your beautiful sympathy.
I love you fara..
=)

*1 more day

For you =)

2009-05-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

I give you this ring
as a promise to you
a promise that I'll be here
and I'll always be true

I promise that I'll hold you
when your day isn't going right
and i will comfort you
through the long cold night

I promise that I'll make you smile
when you feel like dying
I promise that I'll be here
when you feel like crying

I promise that i will guide you
when the future isn't clear
i promise i will be there
to wipe away your every tear

i promise that no matter what
we will make it through
i give you this ring as a promise
A promise that I will always love you

I miss her so much

2009-04-27T10:39:00.000-07:00

its 1.41 in the morning.
study study study...
all i can think about is final exam and her.
currently in mcd in mount kiara...
Superhuman song was on..
the only thing in my mind right now is her.
owh how i miss those smile of hers.
those laughter i long to hear.
cute face that she makes when i kiss her cheek..
that crooked eyebrows when i do something stupid..
but the most i miss is....
to see her happy face while smiling at me and say..
i love you bie..

love you Nur Farahin A'skiah

these days

2009-04-26T04:18:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since ive post.
Missing her alot these days.
haih...when can i see her..
New semester just started.

I've been down abit lately but she was there for me..
thanx sayang..
i love you too.
hahaha..
and yeah..
i think im gonna be fine.

the only thing in my head is Nur Farahin A'skiah and a car.
hahahah..

When am i getting a car?!
When do i get to see you sayang?!
haha

peace..
cheers

=)

2009-04-06T01:49:00.000-07:00

P.D
holiday!
yes
i love you.
so much!
=)
this photo is for you love
hope you like it
=)

One day
ill give it to you
=)

=)

2009-02-23T10:10:00.001-08:00

Like the stars in the sky,
I am calling to you.

From the heavens above,
I am looking for you.

In the depths of my soul,
I will live and breathe for you.

Sadness dwells inside you;
You have nothing to fear,

for I am next to you.
I can feel your sadness;

Let me be sad for you,
so you will feel love once again.

Worry not about life,
let me worry for you.

You should always love life,
for it is a part of you.

I'll be there when you fall,
to catch you and say I Love You...

You

2009-01-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

The question has come to me. So many times. Why? How?
The thought of you streams through me like, the rush of emotions when you have your first kiss. Pleasant, sweet, paralyzing and amazingly memorable. As the days pass, the nights come and go, the constant thought of you still lingers in me, on my mind, and my heart still beats even if its just a little everytime i think about you, or the someone or somehow something reminds me of you. The vision of you next to me, smiling at me, like you always do, or those eyes, those amazin eyes... that drive men crazy, the one that make me tingle inside, the one that makes my toes curl. I miss every part of it, every scent you had, every look you gave, every smile for each mood you have, has all become a part of me. The timeless moments we shared, have been inscribed in me, like an ancient tablet with ancient writings, our bond our memories frozen and cherished, sought after remembered, timelessly untouched, un altered and written down in stone, for everyone to see, yet the true meaning of it is only kept like a secret only for you and i.

They say, that when a person is born, there is another person born for them, completely capatible, almost as if one could say the same person. And the chances of meeting that person is one in a million. Summer love comes close to that, yet it ends in heart ache and good memories. You are that person, in every aspect. Like one heartbeat, we shared moments that only dreams can describe. When they ask me have you felt love? one word decribes that meaning of love. For it cant be described, only felt, and every moment i was with you, thinking about you, like i the air i breathe.. I feel you, I feel love. If there was a flaw with me, it would be only to love a person, to try to love them like i loved you, Love you. Heaven is missing an angel, cause you are my angel, sent to me, light the first warm beautiful rays of the morning sunrise, you came to me. You inspired me, you encouraged me, showed me the light in life, in my friends, in me, but mot of all you made me believe in love.. you make me feel like i could walk on water, see through the vastness of the see, the beauty in all things, every aspect of everything i see, hear, feel and dream about. Its like you came out of a dream, and every moment of that happiness, of that pleasure, of that memorable times i felt, still feel.. i feel afraid.. so afraid that at any point of the time im with you i could wake up and you'l disappear from my life like a gust of wind. Though your not here, your not with me, i can feel you in the air, i can see you in people's faces, smiles, and in life. So the question of why... why did you disappear? why did you go? Why did i let you go, like a lover's hand clasped for the last time, like romeo held juliets hand fo rthe last time before their hands are slipped away from each other which would start the pain, torment, the living nightmare. And what would be left is the thoughts of when, i would see i see you again, when i would hold you in my arms again, when i would feel the soft, graze of your lips against mine. When i would feel the warm touch of your hands, of the smile that brings out the best in me. When i would hear the voice that could serende men into a frenzy, the one that would calm my soul, make my ehart beat faster, yet feels like a sudden rush of a adrenaline yet beating at a slow pace. When we would lie under the autumn trees as the leaves slowly glide with the breeze past us, making us feel like the world has stopped except us, like the world is our us. Only us. When we would sit by the beach and star into the dark black ocean only lit up by the full white moon, shining its beauty on the ocean as if creating a pathway into the unknown, i would travel to teh vastness of the uncertainty to prove my love for you. Just to see you smile. Enjoying the scenery and just holding you as you lie on me, till we see the first few amazinly, stunningly, timeless ever constant beauty of the first few rays of the sunrise. then fall asleep with you on the beach, holding you tightly as if i afraid you'l disappear like dream yet smile knowing i have you safe in my arms, from all the pain, and harm and despair from whatever may come. I would wonder when i would lie on a pool couch, by the maldivian ocean clear as glass, with the sun shining on us, listening to the ocean soothe our souls and minds, erasing problems from our souls and mind. When i would hold you in the ocean staring into those eyes, which would make it seem as if it were only us even if we were surrounded by a million people, it would see only you, hear only you, as if we were in our own world. Holding you enjoying the moment, as the waves gently carry us up and down as if we were flying yet only for a moment. When i would sit by the oceanside having dinner with you only lit by candle light, just looking into your eyes, as if we could read each other's mind and yet nothing would need to be said, as our food goes cold, but why should we care? We have each other, the need for all other things is irrelavant, like almost like a distant memory, waiting to be forgotten. Or holding your hand in the basking sun or on a beach where our path is lit by moonlight, holding your hand smiling for no apparent reason, the happiness becomes undescribable. Yet our thoughts entwined. When would i drive by the french countryside with the wind blowing in your hair as you smile and all we do is just hold hands and enjoy each other's company and scenery around us, Just us. Only us. That would be more than enough, more than anyone could ask for. With each moments of these times we share i would wish for it to never end, that time would stop, so we could only have these moments and each other throughtout time. Throughtout everything.

You is all I need. All I ever wanted, dreamed of, thought of, longed for.

You..

Permission

2009-01-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

so what's the plan now?

are we or won't we?

so what's the deal now?

should we or shouldn't we?

you've taking over my head again,

i'm folding each memory in,

asking permission to keep it in your

empty,

when will you love again,

empty.. is what you are,

without the nice things you had before

so what was it to you

were we or weren't we?

did it come back for you?

now there you finally see

it's already been gone too long

i shoudn't have pick up the phone

I'm asking permission to

pretend that we've moved on

empty,

is what you'll find in here

empty..is you'll see,

a lot of things i've offered you

what am i to you?

was i or wasn't i?

so what you said was true,

did you or didn't you?

you've taking over my head again,

i'm folding each memory in,

asking permission to keep it in your hands

empty,

when will you love again,

empty.. is what you are,

without the nice things you had before

was it love to you?

the old me is coming back.

2009-01-10T23:42:00.000-08:00

urmm...i think its almost 5 times i asked you

do you still wanna try?

your answer is no..

now youre saying that u was considering it until you read what i wrote?

hmm...

nice...

*taking a deep breath*

>=)

i got all the lies..

and what? i should be the one who comes back to you and ask for you back?

ask for forgiveness?

"sekali dah diludah takkan patah balik"

but i dont think its once.

yet i still turn back...

should i be the one that turning back AGAIN this time?

kita lihat apa kata survey......

peace..

after all...

2009-01-09T10:05:00.000-08:00

i dont blame you for what has happened
i saw it coming.
its not once that ive been broken by lies,
but i dont know why i still want to try with you.
sometimes i feel like a fool,
and i dont think thats cool.
to wait for you this time is a lie,
i made my decision to fly.
fly far away from you...
maybe im your bad luck charm,
im sorry i mean no harm.
im a just guy left with only disappointment,
left by someone with no commitment.
IT TAKES TWO TO TANGO.
maybe its better for us to have never known each other.
and i think its best for me to keep my distance further.
i LOVED you and i miss you,
but the feeling had just flew away.
your messages are the first thing i want to read the moment i wake up,
every single time i go online your presence is what i want.
but things changed.
and i dont blame you for what has changed.
this is goodbye.
time to fly...

=)

2009-01-01T11:22:00.001-08:00

speecless..

happy.

New Year...

2008-12-31T12:54:00.000-08:00

please...

if you dont want to give me hopes...

then dont...

but if u are ready to try something...

then im here.

but please dont play around with feelings.

cause it sucks..

i dont think i can play your game.

cause i know i would lose.

new year...

fun..

entertaining...

frustrating...

missing...

stop it..your wish is my command

2008-12-25T09:52:00.000-08:00

your wish is my command.

maybe you dont realise it.

but your way of doing "things" are like giving people hopes.

without you realizing,

people are falling.

and you expect them to just stop falling?

i understand that you are trying to be safe.

i respect that.

its good to be careful.

but you shouldn't be so scared of something new.

you should "try" something new.

but yeah...try with some one that you have feelings for.

Pushing it away.

2008-12-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

i felt like u are pushing me away.

i told u my answer is stay.

i would not run away.

"finish what ever that you are doing"

when theres a start theres an end.

im not going to stop in the middle and just leave it like that.

im going to stay.

its up to u to run away.

something is coming back

2008-12-20T06:02:00.000-08:00

i couldn't sleep thinking of her.

felt like something is coming over.

it freaks me out at first.

thinking what could happen.

but i was actually happy.

fliping back to memories.

the feeling is coming back to me.

'what if'. 'try'.

hope it will make a different this time.

should i stay?

or should i run away?

i choose my answer,

stay.

2008-12-12T10:53:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since i post.
haha..
well....

i miss you..
yes i do..
everyday i went down back to memory lane,
its always about you.
together with you i miss..
so in love with each other but why end up like this?
to wait for you is a lie..
but if you come back to me yes i think i could fly.
even though the love is gone....
always remember....
my hands in yours.....

ballet for adeline..1 song could change my day.

2008-10-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

i miss you..
all i do..
but what can i do?.
things are different now..
finally.
i wont disturb you anymore more..
i wont give you problems..
i wont annoy you..
i wont make you sad..
i wont make you cry..
im sure you are happy living your life right now.
well i am not that happy..
but my friends are slowly changing it for me.
but sometimes i miss you..
sometimes i looked back to the video.
it helps me a lot..
enjoy your life..
good luck in life..

good bye =)

2008-10-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

things wouldn't be the same..
good bye..
but something in my heart just would not let it go.
=)..
what if...
i wouldn't think you would believe in it..
=).

2008-10-17T17:55:00.000-07:00

Even if i say that i wounldn't wait for you..
Even if i say i don't love you...
non of that is true...
its a a phrase to make me feel better.
i was fill with anger..
and i know i should't had that anger.
because i was tired waiting for you.
but i can never forget about you.
cause you are the best thing that had happen to me in a long time..
you know ill wait for you.
you know how much i love you..
i know you cant except me...
i respect your decision.
but from what you wrote......from all those words...
i can see that you have something but you still hiding it...
follow your heart.

2008-10-17T02:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, ,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
fills me with desire,
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

2008-10-08T06:34:00.000-07:00

if you would tell me earlier,
if you would at least give me a sign,
things would be just fine.
but you kept pulling your self back,
left me holding on.
keep telling your self not to fall,
but actually you are falling.
im confused by you.
it hurts.
when things are not meant to be,
then its just not meant to be.
i accept that...

2008-10-03T10:39:00.000-07:00

=).
3/10/08
i shall remember...
she played the piano....she's AWESOME!...
ballet for adeline....
=)
that song reminds me of her...the way she plays it...its like she really really into the piano...she actually made me smile when she plays it..haha....she's good...and now i couldn't stop listening to that song...haha...
because of that........
she made my day...
thank you..
=)...
"not a million fight can make me hate you.. ur invincible"
that the best thing...she can make me smile even though im not in a mood....
she can also spoil my mood!..
hahahaha..
=P...
anyways..
that's it...
really had a good day..
thanks (u know who u are)
=)...
F**A
=P

2008-08-13T10:34:00.000-07:00

Hey!. we meet again!
muahaha..
xP.
its been quite a long time..
hmm...
things been going a bit crazy..here and there..but..everything's cool.
starting my class on the 18th.. luckily Hakim is there..haha..
just broke up..haiya..sad story ah..ish ish ish.. seems that shes moving on.. so should i..
what to do..people don't want..what can we do. (orang dah tak nak..ape kite boleh buat.)
=P...
shes a nice girl though.
but..u know..hehe...something big is coming.
>=D...
haha..
ok2.. i should stop writing..callobette..
next time i got time i write k...

xP

2008-07-02T10:41:00.000-07:00

Finally.. Applied for college..
KDU looks cool...
hahahaha...
owh yeah...
the best thing today is...
I got to know with a Portugis chick...
shes damm cute...
xP..
anyway...thats it for today...
the rest was boring..

-.-"

O_o....

2008-07-01T00:57:00.000-07:00

Just woke up...really2 tired...
really2 bored...no sisters to irritate...
=(...mom is making noise about going to college..
chill la mom...i want to enjoy first..haha...hmm...
anyway...ill take a shower first..haha..

King and Queen.

2008-06-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

Munir the Cute.

and Izzah the Mak Datin.

Favorite Rockstar.

2008-06-30T10:50:00.000-07:00

Iffat Abdul Latif

What makes him a rockstar:
1. Stylo

2. Cool
3. Girl's asset (nice ass!) *no, im not gay. dont worry! ;)
4. Stupidly funny

hoho! ;)

2008-06-30T10:38:00.000-07:00

yes!...xP..first post..wohoho...
xP..
urmm... urmmm...
haih...ntah lah labu..
Owh yeah...
Spain won... I won DUNHILL 40...
hahahaha... Germany sucks!..
hahaha..
Hartamas was awesome!...x)...
Germany chicks were hot!.. x)
hahaha....