The question has come to me. So many times. Why? How?
The thought of you streams through me like, the rush of emotions when you have your first kiss. Pleasant, sweet, paralyzing and amazingly memorable. As the days pass, the nights come and go, the constant thought of you still lingers in me, on my mind, and my heart still beats even if its just a little everytime i think about you, or the someone or somehow something reminds me of you. The vision of you next to me, smiling at me, like you always do, or those eyes, those amazin eyes... that drive men crazy, the one that make me tingle inside, the one that makes my toes curl. I miss every part of it, every scent you had, every look you gave, every smile for each mood you have, has all become a part of me. The timeless moments we shared, have been inscribed in me, like an ancient tablet with ancient writings, our bond our memories frozen and cherished, sought after remembered, timelessly untouched, un altered and written down in stone, for everyone to see, yet the true meaning of it is only kept like a secret only for you and i.
They say, that when a person is born, there is another person born for them, completely capatible, almost as if one could say the same person. And the chances of meeting that person is one in a million. Summer love comes close to that, yet it ends in heart ache and good memories. You are that person, in every aspect. Like one heartbeat, we shared moments that only dreams can describe. When they ask me have you felt love? one word decribes that meaning of love. For it cant be described, only felt, and every moment i was with you, thinking about you, like i the air i breathe.. I feel you, I feel love. If there was a flaw with me, it would be only to love a person, to try to love them like i loved you, Love you. Heaven is missing an angel, cause you are my angel, sent to me, light the first warm beautiful rays of the morning sunrise, you came to me. You inspired me, you encouraged me, showed me the light in life, in my friends, in me, but mot of all you made me believe in love.. you make me feel like i could walk on water, see through the vastness of the see, the beauty in all things, every aspect of everything i see, hear, feel and dream about. Its like you came out of a dream, and every moment of that happiness, of that pleasure, of that memorable times i felt, still feel.. i feel afraid.. so afraid that at any point of the time im with you i could wake up and you'l disappear from my life like a gust of wind. Though your not here, your not with me, i can feel you in the air, i can see you in people's faces, smiles, and in life. So the question of why... why did you disappear? why did you go? Why did i let you go, like a lover's hand clasped for the last time, like romeo held juliets hand fo rthe last time before their hands are slipped away from each other which would start the pain, torment, the living nightmare. And what would be left is the thoughts of when, i would see i see you again, when i would hold you in my arms again, when i would feel the soft, graze of your lips against mine. When i would feel the warm touch of your hands, of the smile that brings out the best in me. When i would hear the voice that could serende men into a frenzy, the one that would calm my soul, make my ehart beat faster, yet feels like a sudden rush of a adrenaline yet beating at a slow pace. When we would lie under the autumn trees as the leaves slowly glide with the breeze past us, making us feel like the world has stopped except us, like the world is our us. Only us. When we would sit by the beach and star into the dark black ocean only lit up by the full white moon, shining its beauty on the ocean as if creating a pathway into the unknown, i would travel to teh vastness of the uncertainty to prove my love for you. Just to see you smile. Enjoying the scenery and just holding you as you lie on me, till we see the first few amazinly, stunningly, timeless ever constant beauty of the first few rays of the sunrise. then fall asleep with you on the beach, holding you tightly as if i afraid you'l disappear like dream yet smile knowing i have you safe in my arms, from all the pain, and harm and despair from whatever may come. I would wonder when i would lie on a pool couch, by the maldivian ocean clear as glass, with the sun shining on us, listening to the ocean soothe our souls and minds, erasing problems from our souls and mind. When i would hold you in the ocean staring into those eyes, which would make it seem as if it were only us even if we were surrounded by a million people, it would see only you, hear only you, as if we were in our own world. Holding you enjoying the moment, as the waves gently carry us up and down as if we were flying yet only for a moment. When i would sit by the oceanside having dinner with you only lit by candle light, just looking into your eyes, as if we could read each other's mind and yet nothing would need to be said, as our food goes cold, but why should we care? We have each other, the need for all other things is irrelavant, like almost like a distant memory, waiting to be forgotten. Or holding your hand in the basking sun or on a beach where our path is lit by moonlight, holding your hand smiling for no apparent reason, the happiness becomes undescribable. Yet our thoughts entwined. When would i drive by the french countryside with the wind blowing in your hair as you smile and all we do is just hold hands and enjoy each other's company and scenery around us, Just us. Only us. That would be more than enough, more than anyone could ask for. With each moments of these times we share i would wish for it to never end, that time would stop, so we could only have these moments and each other throughtout time. Throughtout everything.
You is all I need. All I ever wanted, dreamed of, thought of, longed for.
You..
